终于明白了家中老二比较奸的意思了...
也许人们会觉得，为什么你这样说呢？
在家中老大就是被认为比较懂事，
老小的，就是被疼爱...
那老二呢？
他找不到属于自己的地方..
很自然的就会学老大与人沟通的方法，的态度...
也学老小能被疼爱的原因...
这是老二的生存之道...
开始我真的不这样觉得...
但慢慢的...我真的发现了...
我一直以来都在羡慕他们...
学习老大的与人沟通方式，态度...
老大总是能与人有个好的沟通方法，用了他能让人喜欢的方法...
学习老小能被疼爱的原因...
可是这却满足不了...
学习了，可是却被认为没礼貌...
沟通也成了一种方程式...
老小能能得到的疼爱，老二却没有...
羡慕会成为一种妒忌...
那老二到底应该怎么样做呢？
只想让他们能得到的，老二也得到～
这算是失去了自己吗？
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Sunday, November 10, 2013
太好人？
前天发现...
曲，为他们编好了，
歌，也听着他们录了，
可是出版的CD and MTV，我的名都没出现过，
出现的乃是别人的名，
感觉像撞了幅墙～
今天...
她的一句：“ 跟女生或家人一起看会更好，因为如果跟男生一起看就不能对着她爱的偶像发疯。”
我就忍了一个星期不去看，就是等她...
可她今天就跟一位约她的男生去看了...
心伤了的感觉真的不好受...
是我太好人了吗？
曲，为他们编好了，
歌，也听着他们录了，
可是出版的CD and MTV，我的名都没出现过，
出现的乃是别人的名，
感觉像撞了幅墙～
今天...
她的一句：“ 跟女生或家人一起看会更好，因为如果跟男生一起看就不能对着她爱的偶像发疯。”
我就忍了一个星期不去看，就是等她...
可她今天就跟一位约她的男生去看了...
心伤了的感觉真的不好受...
是我太好人了吗？
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Thursday, December 20, 2012
烦恼...
人总是这样的活着...
小时所面对的问题为什么现在又得面对回呢？
小时傻傻的不觉得 怎么样...
但现在的我...只想着逃避的方法...
累了...
面对...太累了...
还有两年多得面对...
放弃...不想让父母失望...
面对...让自己痛苦...
逃避...只是一时的快乐...
可以别再让我面对这种羞辱吗？！
我无法再承受这样的负担...
为什么现实的世界就不能像中学快乐的日子吗？
纳闷...
朋友...到底有谁...
姐...可以给我个拥抱吗？
小时所面对的问题为什么现在又得面对回呢？
小时傻傻的不觉得 怎么样...
但现在的我...只想着逃避的方法...
累了...
面对...太累了...
还有两年多得面对...
放弃...不想让父母失望...
面对...让自己痛苦...
逃避...只是一时的快乐...
可以别再让我面对这种羞辱吗？！
我无法再承受这样的负担...
为什么现实的世界就不能像中学快乐的日子吗？
纳闷...
朋友...到底有谁...
姐...可以给我个拥抱吗？
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
8/09/2010 (Wednesday)
This week is a holiday...
holiday is the most best thing ever!!
but this time...
i need to study hard...
because SPM trial is coming soon...
just near beside me...
arhhh~there is no way to run!
OK~
Let say something happy today...
today need to go back school for class...
1:30pm-3:30pm...
but i' m later for class...^^
When class had finished...
Fish, Evon and me went to Timesquare for outing...
First place we went...
Monorail...
I changed my cloth in a toilet with no light...
what a surprise...=.=
but i need some light to change my cloth...
so the door was open a little bit...
and there was two bodyguards there...
That was Fish and Evon...haha..
something new at the monorail...
that was lazier...
for sense those peoples who wanted to use the E.stair must get through it...
Second place we went...
Timesquare...=.=
(everybody know dude!!)hehe...
we went to eat...inside the Timesquare...
sorry that i had forgotten the name of the Restoran...
was something with a "Rock....." word...
Third place we went...
the most important part...
Balling...
when i went in...
the thing i most hated was they played the Ladygaga song!!
hate it!!!
second...
the speaker was tooooooo loud...
talking to my friend i need to scream...=.=
Third...
the first round we played was RM9...
quite expensive...=.=
but the second round just only RM6.50...
that was better...
but the most important was fun...
we get fun there...
balling is a nice game...
i like it...
and we three played like an idiot...
we all don't know how to play...
the first round and the second round i get the highest marks...
nonono...
i should say...
the second round actually not me...but somebody had planned to throw it to 'longkang'...
this is because the winner have to free chocolate...for Them...=.=
and about 6:00pm...
i have to go home...
they still stay there for a while...
Forth place i went...
now is how i went home...
monorail(imbi)-->hang tuah--->LRT(Hang Tuah)-->Tasik Selatan-->405 bus-->Leisure Mall-->In the end...dad came and picked me up...
when i' m home is about 7:30pm...
what a good day...
night...
still got practicing at church...
but is fast...
nice work!!
gOOD NIGHT everyone...^^
holiday is the most best thing ever!!
but this time...
i need to study hard...
because SPM trial is coming soon...
just near beside me...
arhhh~there is no way to run!
OK~
Let say something happy today...
today need to go back school for class...
1:30pm-3:30pm...
but i' m later for class...^^
When class had finished...
Fish, Evon and me went to Timesquare for outing...
First place we went...
Monorail...
I changed my cloth in a toilet with no light...
what a surprise...=.=
but i need some light to change my cloth...
so the door was open a little bit...
and there was two bodyguards there...
That was Fish and Evon...haha..
something new at the monorail...
that was lazier...
for sense those peoples who wanted to use the E.stair must get through it...
Second place we went...
Timesquare...=.=
(everybody know dude!!)hehe...
we went to eat...inside the Timesquare...
sorry that i had forgotten the name of the Restoran...
was something with a "Rock....." word...
Third place we went...
the most important part...
Balling...
when i went in...
the thing i most hated was they played the Ladygaga song!!
hate it!!!
second...
the speaker was tooooooo loud...
talking to my friend i need to scream...=.=
Third...
the first round we played was RM9...
quite expensive...=.=
but the second round just only RM6.50...
that was better...
but the most important was fun...
we get fun there...
balling is a nice game...
i like it...
and we three played like an idiot...
we all don't know how to play...
the first round and the second round i get the highest marks...
nonono...
i should say...
the second round actually not me...but somebody had planned to throw it to 'longkang'...
this is because the winner have to free chocolate...for Them...=.=
and about 6:00pm...
i have to go home...
they still stay there for a while...
Forth place i went...
now is how i went home...
monorail(imbi)-->hang tuah--->LRT(Hang Tuah)-->Tasik Selatan-->405 bus-->Leisure Mall-->In the end...dad came and picked me up...
when i' m home is about 7:30pm...
what a good day...
night...
still got practicing at church...
but is fast...
nice work!!
gOOD NIGHT everyone...^^
Thursday, June 10, 2010
10/06/2010 What happen to me today?
I am so weak now...
not my body but my spirit...
and i don't know why either...
is it I'm too busy?
no I'm not...is too free actually...
is it about me and my younger sister?
maybe a little i think...
is it about the music and me?
maybe a little i think...
is it about my school life and me?
maybe a little i think...
What the sorrow am i having correctly?
I am so confuse now...
not only confusing...
and my mind is all blank...
why?who can tell me why?!
God...
please take away my sorrow please...
i have no way to go and no way to run...
i know you are the only one who knows me...
understand me and care about me the most...
in Jesus name i pray...
Amen...
not my body but my spirit...
and i don't know why either...
is it I'm too busy?
no I'm not...is too free actually...
is it about me and my younger sister?
maybe a little i think...
is it about the music and me?
maybe a little i think...
is it about my school life and me?
maybe a little i think...
What the sorrow am i having correctly?
I am so confuse now...
not only confusing...
and my mind is all blank...
why?who can tell me why?!
God...
please take away my sorrow please...
i have no way to go and no way to run...
i know you are the only one who knows me...
understand me and care about me the most...
in Jesus name i pray...
Amen...
Friday, June 4, 2010
04/06/2010 星期五 A4J prayer meeting
yeah!开始放假咯！
今天晚上有A4J PRAYER MEETING...
在教会很久了的我...
有时觉得累了...
再也不想付出任何的时间了...
心里面有些私人问题要处理...
就一直的靠着自己去处理...
但在今天的 prayer meeting 敬拜当中时...
有一句话让我醒了过来...
他大概是将的'要倚靠神''信靠他'...'他行伟大的神迹'...
当时我哭得很厉害...
很久都没有这种被圣灵触摸的感觉了...
真得要感谢神...
感谢他让我在我的私人事上...
懂得要倚靠着神...信靠他...来处理...
处理这件事...乃是要靠神不是靠自己...
感谢神他赐给了我力量再次站立起来...
感谢神在这次的敬拜当中让我经历了很多...
主啊...我的心真的要单单依靠着你...
一直一直...到永远...
敬拜团啊...
沉睡的巨人要醒来啊！
不要落在后面了！
要在前锋！！
现在是复兴的来临啊！~
今天晚上有A4J PRAYER MEETING...
在教会很久了的我...
有时觉得累了...
再也不想付出任何的时间了...
心里面有些私人问题要处理...
就一直的靠着自己去处理...
但在今天的 prayer meeting 敬拜当中时...
有一句话让我醒了过来...
他大概是将的'要倚靠神''信靠他'...'他行伟大的神迹'...
当时我哭得很厉害...
很久都没有这种被圣灵触摸的感觉了...
真得要感谢神...
感谢他让我在我的私人事上...
懂得要倚靠着神...信靠他...来处理...
处理这件事...乃是要靠神不是靠自己...
感谢神他赐给了我力量再次站立起来...
感谢神在这次的敬拜当中让我经历了很多...
主啊...我的心真的要单单依靠着你...
一直一直...到永远...
敬拜团啊...
沉睡的巨人要醒来啊！
不要落在后面了！
要在前锋！！
现在是复兴的来临啊！~
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